We need to communicate to trash things out, if not 心病 and miscommunications will accumulate, because you will not understand what i think and i will not understand what u want. However, you are still not opening up, if you still dont dont want open up and talk, i get the signal that you do not wish to continue this relationship.
你把你的自尊看得这么重，难道我的自尊不值钱吗？I can give in and i am always the one doing that but u also need to.
And if you keep thinking i look down on you, no matter what i do, how much i do, you will still think i look down on you. It only depend on yourself to change your own thinking, i cant help u on this.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Again !!
Again u are like this. You buy the van without even discussing with me, where's the RESPECT ? I remembered very clearly, u told me that if you buy anything, u will discuss with me, where's the respect ?
I remembered my sms was very polite, ask if we can split the usage of car, cos i get really bored everyday in the office here, and i said if cannot its ok. If u think u are solving the problem this way, i can tell u, u are only solving the surface of the problem. The car is not the issue, the issue is your temper and your sensitivity and most importantly, THE WAY U THINK! I know what u are thinking, if you think that when i ask if can split the car, i am trying to look down on you again, because you need to depend me on the car, if you think i am this kind of person, then i really dont want to explain anymore. You always like to mis-understand others, you only think what u want to think, so one-sided, u never think how other people are feeling, i feel really bored here when nobody is around and u never once come and take lunch with me ! This is only a car, so if next time other issues arise, are you going to buy over everything ??? Dear, am i this kind of person ? I give in to everything already, and i give u everything, i got look down on u ?? Can u change your stubborness ??? Nobody is mistreating you, i have been nice to u but it's becoming so difficult to communicate with u dear, u dont stand in other people shoes and think and u even refused to listen to others, u only want to do what you want. You can because of 一时之气 go and buy a vehicle, are we now very rich ? Buying a van is one issue but the way u handle things is not, u dont discuss, u do what u want only, u dont think, u do everything on impulse.
I remembered my sms was very polite, ask if we can split the usage of car, cos i get really bored everyday in the office here, and i said if cannot its ok. If u think u are solving the problem this way, i can tell u, u are only solving the surface of the problem. The car is not the issue, the issue is your temper and your sensitivity and most importantly, THE WAY U THINK! I know what u are thinking, if you think that when i ask if can split the car, i am trying to look down on you again, because you need to depend me on the car, if you think i am this kind of person, then i really dont want to explain anymore. You always like to mis-understand others, you only think what u want to think, so one-sided, u never think how other people are feeling, i feel really bored here when nobody is around and u never once come and take lunch with me ! This is only a car, so if next time other issues arise, are you going to buy over everything ??? Dear, am i this kind of person ? I give in to everything already, and i give u everything, i got look down on u ?? Can u change your stubborness ??? Nobody is mistreating you, i have been nice to u but it's becoming so difficult to communicate with u dear, u dont stand in other people shoes and think and u even refused to listen to others, u only want to do what you want. You can because of 一时之气 go and buy a vehicle, are we now very rich ? Buying a van is one issue but the way u handle things is not, u dont discuss, u do what u want only, u dont think, u do everything on impulse.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Something is wrong between us
Dear, so many things I want to tell u but nowadays so scared to talk to u, cos u very sensitive and always angry, so I decided to write here, hope u will get to read this one day. I have made this private so nobody can read.
Let’s start with yesterday (2.1.2011). I woke up at 5am and didn’t sleep, I was very tired, so I suggested I take a cab to my mom’s home instead of driving, and u get angry.
Dear, u say u don’t want to go home, u asked me to go home myself even though I tell u I am very tired, I know I lack concentration so I want to take cab, and u say I “Forced” you to go with me, yes baby u said the word “FORCED” and u gave me a face immediately. I went back to my mom’s home and kept thinking, why ? why ? why ? Why u always angry ??? I didn’t even speak loud or do anything wrong this time. Furthermore, shouldn’t I be the one to be angry in this case ? Dear think, I let u use my car freely, I don’t get to use it. When u went drinking, one sms I went Jurong in 20mins to fetch u. Second time u went drinking, I sms you to offer to fetch you but u came home by cab yourself. Then when u play golf, I had to either take mrt home or wait for u in office for one hour. The last time at MBGC, I also went to pick u up. Dear think again, I give u so much convenience, and did I always ask u to drive me here and there ? U asked me to go take discs myself, I also went myself, but this time I am lack of sleep, I am very tired, I lack concentration, why do u use the word “FORCED”? If u have appreciated everything I do for u, you will offer to drive me like I always offered to pick u and not used the word “FORCED”. I felt not appreciated at all but I kept quiet. My conclusion is that , you are very sensitive to what people say about you, but you are not sensitive to what people have done for you. Baby, don’t take me for granted please, I have been treating u very good. Just like the incident on Christmas eve, I bought the duck rice for you, put at table and went to bed, and u say i put there is like for dog to eat. But have u ever think, I was not feeling well ?? I was in great menses pain ?? I almost fainted on the street ?? If I treat u no good, I don’t even have to bother to call u and ask u if u want to eat and buy back for you, I won’t even care if u eat or not, right? Baby, think of other people too, stop putting your own feelings always first. What u perceive may not be what really is. There’s always a reason for the cause.
When I know you, you have no money, u sold your car, you are in debt, u persuaded me to accept you, you say u will treat me very nice. I hesitated about your financial status but I thought about it seriously and accepted you as my bf because u said u will treat me very nice. From the moment I accepted you, I understand that this bf has nothing at the moment but I am willing to help him to build his career. I let u use my car, I lend u money, I never asked a cent from you, you should know in this 2 months, who has been paying most of the things. In these 2 months, I have spent about 7.5K (including the laptop). I never even asked you to pay me, i scared you dont have enough once you order the materials. And you wanted to move in to save money on rental, I ok, although I really think “saving money” is not a good reason to move in, you should tell me u wanted to stay with me, wanted to be with me every day, that sounds better. Still I keep quiet. If you think I look down on you, I won’t accept you in the first place, why should I help u so much ? Spend so much money on you for what ? I would better keep my money in bank and count the 7.5K or buy a LV bag, right? Baby, nobody looks down on you, except yourself. Stop being so sensitive ok. And i always follow u around, u like golf, i try to learn, u like fishing, even how tired i go with u, what else u want ? If i look down on u, why do i have to follow u around ? I can do my own things and ask u go yourself.
Going back to 2010. Just the feeling. In early December, u kept saying going here and there to bbq to celebrate Christmas. Though we missed the Christmas due to the argument, I thought u will plan for the New Year’s celebration. I suggested so many places for u, fishing, pub, movie, but u choose to stay at home. It’s just disappointment, we didn’t have anything to remember for the first Christmas and New Year we shared. I know all your heart is only thinking about golf now. For golf, you can skip your work to play golf. But to celebrate with me, u just need to work on your logo and stay home watch tv. This is plain disappointment dear, there’s no memories for me to remember in the future for the first Christmas an New Year we had. Still I kept quiet. And you know, I hate people sleep late and u know yourself, you have been sleeping so late these days. If you tell me it’s for work, u mean u can’t work in the day and sleep at night ? And I know u watch tv until very late too, I am a very light sleeper, i only deep sleep for 1 hour, after that I keep hearing the sound and waking up. You promised you will sleep early with me when there's no urgent drawings to submit. I really dont like people sleep late and u know it but u just keep doing it for no reason. Do u remember when was the last time u hug me to sleep ?
Dear I really find we lost the feeling we had when we are first together, we go parks, play angry bird together, go for movies, go shopping, I could feel u treat me very important then, but now u no longer. When u like then u talk to me, when u don’t u just ignore me. I am still trying very hard to get back this feeling, if only I can. You stopped calling and sms me every day which u used to, u stopped telling me where u go, what u do, who u meet every day which u used to. It become meaningless in a relationship if one day we don’t have the urge to see each other every day, don’t have the urge to tell each other everything, no more communication is the end of a relationship. We are only 2.5 months together but we already stopped talking. I am hoping u can open up and talk instead of getting angry all the time, its unhealthy in a relationship.
Dear I really find we lost the feeling we had when we are first together, we go parks, play angry bird together, go for movies, go shopping, I could feel u treat me very important then, but now u no longer. When u like then u talk to me, when u don’t u just ignore me. I am still trying very hard to get back this feeling, if only I can. You stopped calling and sms me every day which u used to, u stopped telling me where u go, what u do, who u meet every day which u used to. It become meaningless in a relationship if one day we don’t have the urge to see each other every day, don’t have the urge to tell each other everything, no more communication is the end of a relationship. We are only 2.5 months together but we already stopped talking. I am hoping u can open up and talk instead of getting angry all the time, its unhealthy in a relationship.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Dear I'm tired.
Dear, i'm tired of keep updating the blog myself. You wanted this to be our blog, pls write something or at least post some pictures. I can't always do it alone, i can't remember everything.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Second fishing trip ~ Changi
4th December 2010.
After yesterday's total failure. We decided to go for night fishing instead, at least we won't get sunburned.
There we go, Changi Beach. The tide is at 11.00pm, packed our stuffs, got ready by 6.30pm because win says we must be there 3 hours before and 3 hours after the highest tide. So we had our dinner at Changi, bought another 300gm live prawns and selected our spot. Win is so excited, setting up his fishing rods, tying the knots etc etc and then da da da ....... we lost the tube for the pump, so the live prawns are going to be dead in half hours' time, what a turn down for him, he look disappointed.
There are more actions here, we had two encounters of losing the fish, poor fish, your mouth must be so bloody now. Finally we got our first virgin fish, a slightly larger than palm size stingray. We took a picture and let him go, not because win is so kind but because he says the stingray too small, no meat woh.
The wind was so strong, so cold until i woke up shivering. I'm FREEZING this time. Why can't we have a balanced weather, it's either sunburned or frozen.
Win lost 2 fish, he will at least grumble for 2 weeks.
After yesterday's total failure. We decided to go for night fishing instead, at least we won't get sunburned.
There we go, Changi Beach. The tide is at 11.00pm, packed our stuffs, got ready by 6.30pm because win says we must be there 3 hours before and 3 hours after the highest tide. So we had our dinner at Changi, bought another 300gm live prawns and selected our spot. Win is so excited, setting up his fishing rods, tying the knots etc etc and then da da da ....... we lost the tube for the pump, so the live prawns are going to be dead in half hours' time, what a turn down for him, he look disappointed.
There are more actions here, we had two encounters of losing the fish, poor fish, your mouth must be so bloody now. Finally we got our first virgin fish, a slightly larger than palm size stingray. We took a picture and let him go, not because win is so kind but because he says the stingray too small, no meat woh.
The wind was so strong, so cold until i woke up shivering. I'm FREEZING this time. Why can't we have a balanced weather, it's either sunburned or frozen.
Win lost 2 fish, he will at least grumble for 2 weeks.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Our first fishing trip ~ Tuas (virgin rods)
Work up 6.30am on 3rd December 2010 for fishing because the high tide will be at 8.33 am.
Went west coast to buy some fishing stuffs and fresh prawns, had our breakfast and head straight to tuas.
We reached 9.00am, the shore seems potential, setup, get ready, started fishing.
The sky was so blue, the sun is out, we feel so blessed that it's not raining else our trip will be wasted. Yahoo....we can use our virgin rods.
10.00am ~ nothing
11.00am ~ still nothing
12.00pm ~ slight shake but nothing
1.00pm ~ nothing
2.00pm ~ nothing
2.30pm ~ i'm SUNBURNED !!
Started with hope, leaving hopeless.
And fridge now has at least 300gm of fresh prawns for our maggie mee.
Went west coast to buy some fishing stuffs and fresh prawns, had our breakfast and head straight to tuas.
We reached 9.00am, the shore seems potential, setup, get ready, started fishing.
The sky was so blue, the sun is out, we feel so blessed that it's not raining else our trip will be wasted. Yahoo....we can use our virgin rods.
10.00am ~ nothing
11.00am ~ still nothing
12.00pm ~ slight shake but nothing
1.00pm ~ nothing
2.00pm ~ nothing
2.30pm ~ i'm SUNBURNED !!
Started with hope, leaving hopeless.
And fridge now has at least 300gm of fresh prawns for our maggie mee.
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| Christmas present for win |
Sunday, November 28, 2010
My future dog's name ~ Baby
I have decided my future dog's name will be Baby. So whenever i call "baby", i will have a dog barking at me and win answering me....how nice....muahahahahaha. One stone kill two birds leh.
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